Dear Mr Sandman

Dear mr sandman,

How are you?

It's been a while since you've visited me. You seem to be avoiding me. Are you holding back? or has it gone missing? Where have you been? where are your dreams that you share so willingly-

                -of green grass prints on skirts, of easy laughter hanging at the edge of lips, of honest smiles warm to the bone-

                                - Oh how, I miss you so dear. One day, abruptly, it feels you've decided to just be gone. You were once my muse, an amusing light dancing across shadow panes.  Come back, and show me again your bright colours sandman.

Sincereley,

Your friend. 

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Dear Mr sandman,

You're still yet to visit me. I'm waiting patiently. Night after night, and still you do not come. Are you injured? or are you in pain? It doesn't matter what form you come. I'll accept you with open arms.  come as a dream or a nightmare-

    -of gasps, and sharp pain, running through endless corridors and a sense of relief from the realisation of  reality and the dangers that were never really there-

                                                    -do come visit. It's been too long, old friend. It's getting a bit lonesome without you here. 

My breath is my only companion at night nowadays.

Yours,

Your Friend.

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Dear Mr Sandman, 

Please do darken my doorway. Let your shadow loom over my bedside table, bear your teeth at me, spit brittle and bone, bite, tear and chew at my hide. Show me your darkest sides, and I'll show you mine-

    -of cold metal dancing across dense flesh, of the sharp pinch of life that follows quickly, of the smothering weight upon a soul, of the chilly clear voices that rises above the murky waters of ones mind-

                    -I swear you won't be alone. We're the same you and I, unmoored sailors floating through murky waters. Let us share our oars and paddle, take turns fighting the dark tides-

                                                                            - If I asked you to end everything for me? would you?

Please,

Your friend.

 

Ruthlessness is a trait

that sees point A to B with clarity

and the conviction and strength to make it just so.

years

 of patience, pain and care

of toil, compromises and sitting by the sidelines

 

It is the cold hard perseverance of loyalty

of unwavering faith, complete trust and all that fairy dust,

blindly following, deafly singing to a tune set to the same track,

                                                                                                                                                                                                   Like a parched beggar roaming the dessert

 Who has seen an oases from far, deftly making way

past course sand and harsh dry winds grating the skin, searching-

 

I would have travelled to the ends of the earth,

past the solace of conformity and being

scatter all the cards that I hold

 

For the tender touch of your lips,

The lingering feeling of your fingers between mine,

The steady beat of your heart-

and I would have put everything on the line,

bleed like a cattle on a table

pour myself, trusting you with the incision

Thud, thud, thudding against the ribcage,

the lullaby of the heart to calm the twisted soul

the balm to the scars marred by darkness untold

 

and I would have burned the world for you,

Strike a match, light it up, watch it as it burn burn burn,

down to ashes to the ground,

                                                                       and maybe I did-

                                                                                                        

holding on to all the burnt corpses on the ground.